Hell's over!
30/4/09 18:15![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
invitanSuddenly I have this crazy thought that I want to top this school :-w *although I know it's utterly totally impossible*
I am now sleeping in the same cabin with the scholar with the highest L1-R5 score in SCGS - 6! And she's a year younger than me (Although it's because it counts Mother Tongue - which Vietnamese scholars are exempted anyway *If only there is a Vietnamese subject :-< *. If she counts English, not MT, I know her grade should be 10 only). And when I came across her diary *purely by accident, not deliberately*, I saw she thought that she's pretty smart, but she's lazy. Ha... Then who am I? The sloth of the sloth, perhaps?
Okay, I admit that I'm super jealous. But I don't hate her (right, I'm competitive, but not that competitive), but I feel like the sky is falling, and my world turns upside down, and I feel embarassed and disappointed of myself, because I know I can do better than that. Even though my grade is not that bad (9 actually... and it's a fact that I don't take MT and have to count English grade), but it is falling, and falling so miserably that I am distressed and tired. Perhaps I have expected too high of myself? But I have always thought to high of myself anyway.
(I also want to know why everything is so unfair to the Vietnamese?)
And now I wonder since when my world suddenly spins around schoolwork and classes and lessons and self-autism? I really have to stop whining and start to actually do something about it.
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I've done with my recount *sigh*. The entire morning when I'm supposed to review had been spent sewing my backpack (it's called at the wrong time in the wrong place isn't it?). And then the whole recess was spent studying how to sew *I'll blame Phở for this - she told me the fake question :-w*
Anyway, I'm done with it, and that's it. I know the composition has no relevance, but I don't care. Tomorrow is holiday, and I'll try to review for Physics (because I have sworn... *sigh* and I don't want kami-sama to strike me to dead because of taking his name in vain)
*Sigh*
I am now sleeping in the same cabin with the scholar with the highest L1-R5 score in SCGS - 6! And she's a year younger than me (Although it's because it counts Mother Tongue - which Vietnamese scholars are exempted anyway *If only there is a Vietnamese subject :-< *. If she counts English, not MT, I know her grade should be 10 only). And when I came across her diary *purely by accident, not deliberately*, I saw she thought that she's pretty smart, but she's lazy. Ha... Then who am I? The sloth of the sloth, perhaps?
Okay, I admit that I'm super jealous. But I don't hate her (right, I'm competitive, but not that competitive), but I feel like the sky is falling, and my world turns upside down, and I feel embarassed and disappointed of myself, because I know I can do better than that. Even though my grade is not that bad (9 actually... and it's a fact that I don't take MT and have to count English grade), but it is falling, and falling so miserably that I am distressed and tired. Perhaps I have expected too high of myself? But I have always thought to high of myself anyway.
(I also want to know why everything is so unfair to the Vietnamese?)
And now I wonder since when my world suddenly spins around schoolwork and classes and lessons and self-autism? I really have to stop whining and start to actually do something about it.
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I've done with my recount *sigh*. The entire morning when I'm supposed to review had been spent sewing my backpack (it's called at the wrong time in the wrong place isn't it?). And then the whole recess was spent studying how to sew *I'll blame Phở for this - she told me the fake question :-w*
Anyway, I'm done with it, and that's it. I know the composition has no relevance, but I don't care. Tomorrow is holiday, and I'll try to review for Physics (because I have sworn... *sigh* and I don't want kami-sama to strike me to dead because of taking his name in vain)
*Sigh*
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