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invitanOk, so maybe 'hatred' is a bit over-exaggerating, but still, I dislike board games. Or chess in particular.
Perhaps it's an enjoyable pastime, that is, for a pastime, a hobby, an interest. Perhaps its appeal lies hidden behind the process of thoughts, of analysis, the stupendous effort that is put into it, the genuine feeling of a bloodshed and ruthless battle.
Perhaps it is interesting, but then, it's nothing that way in a competition, and when you suck at it.
It's not my fault that I suck at board games. It's really not my fault. I was born with excellent social analytical skills, not logical analytical skills. And it's not like I hadn't tried my best. I really did. I've never thrown a game before, and never will I. It's just that I practically have no talent and spare no passion for this game.
So I really cannot be blamed if I lose every single game in the competition, can I?
(well, not really, since I actually skip 3 games and play with nobody in 1 game, so I've got a win-by-default)
Anyway, I'm not frustrated because of losing. I know more than well that all these efforts are not spared for winning. Why the hell should I try to win in a game not to my liking? So don't misunderstand. I don't hate chess because of the game itself. Or because of my futile attempts. I hate it because of the players.
Yeah, yeah, I know, I stink, and I deserve no praise or cheers from anyone. I expect nothing anyway. But why can't people spare the losers some pride? I actually pride myself on never throwing a game ever, and I believe it's a good enough something to be proud of. Even if I don't care about winning or losing, I actually have some consideration towards my opponents, who are as eager to crush me as I'm eager to smash the chess board into pieces. I can always simply play suicidal and finish the game in 1 minutes, but I have enough conscience to understand that I have my self-esteem to preserve. Even if you lose, lose with your head high. I have no shame of myself - not at all.
So then why do they have to crush my tiny bit of self-respect? Why do they have to interrupt in the middle of the game to kindly tell me that I am leaving my Queen vulnerable to the predator? Who needs your condescending pity? Yeah, right, I know I'm playing as a stupid brainless idiot, and you can just tell me, or yell at me, or shout at me that. Or if your mind feels too bothered, then just massacre my pieces quickly and finish the game and we can have a post-discussion where you can show me how dull and stupid I am as much as you want to. I'm okay with it. You don't need to wear your high and mighty mask on and throw me one bit of your hypocrisy. I don't need and don't want to owe you anything and anything! At all!
I hate chess competition. I really do :-<
Perhaps it's an enjoyable pastime, that is, for a pastime, a hobby, an interest. Perhaps its appeal lies hidden behind the process of thoughts, of analysis, the stupendous effort that is put into it, the genuine feeling of a bloodshed and ruthless battle.
Perhaps it is interesting, but then, it's nothing that way in a competition, and when you suck at it.
It's not my fault that I suck at board games. It's really not my fault. I was born with excellent social analytical skills, not logical analytical skills. And it's not like I hadn't tried my best. I really did. I've never thrown a game before, and never will I. It's just that I practically have no talent and spare no passion for this game.
So I really cannot be blamed if I lose every single game in the competition, can I?
(well, not really, since I actually skip 3 games and play with nobody in 1 game, so I've got a win-by-default)
Anyway, I'm not frustrated because of losing. I know more than well that all these efforts are not spared for winning. Why the hell should I try to win in a game not to my liking? So don't misunderstand. I don't hate chess because of the game itself. Or because of my futile attempts. I hate it because of the players.
Yeah, yeah, I know, I stink, and I deserve no praise or cheers from anyone. I expect nothing anyway. But why can't people spare the losers some pride? I actually pride myself on never throwing a game ever, and I believe it's a good enough something to be proud of. Even if I don't care about winning or losing, I actually have some consideration towards my opponents, who are as eager to crush me as I'm eager to smash the chess board into pieces. I can always simply play suicidal and finish the game in 1 minutes, but I have enough conscience to understand that I have my self-esteem to preserve. Even if you lose, lose with your head high. I have no shame of myself - not at all.
So then why do they have to crush my tiny bit of self-respect? Why do they have to interrupt in the middle of the game to kindly tell me that I am leaving my Queen vulnerable to the predator? Who needs your condescending pity? Yeah, right, I know I'm playing as a stupid brainless idiot, and you can just tell me, or yell at me, or shout at me that. Or if your mind feels too bothered, then just massacre my pieces quickly and finish the game and we can have a post-discussion where you can show me how dull and stupid I am as much as you want to. I'm okay with it. You don't need to wear your high and mighty mask on and throw me one bit of your hypocrisy. I don't need and don't want to owe you anything and anything! At all!
I hate chess competition. I really do :-<
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23/8/09 14:28 (UTC)