Japan... and rambling
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invitan*Smile* Sometimes I do wonder if I really like Japan at all. Especially since last November. Yeah, right, I was too occupied by overwhelming schoolwork and getting accustomed to this new place, but it does not mean I have ceased to read manga, watch anime, J-drama and listen to J-pop.
I don't really like the way I am becoming now. Somehow standing in a neutral position and be the observer is much more easier to breathe. I hate making decision about something and I hate making up my mind. I hate when I have to admit I like Japan, and I hate to appear as a Japan addict in front of their eyes.
I, in one way or another, really want to look like a normal decent nerd.
I do love study, which is why I hate the way I am now. I hate the sleepiness that takes over my eyelids during lessons, which might result in terrible consequences if it's not for I have already learnt those things.
I hate it when I cannot make any progress. I hate it when I fail the exam... twice. And I truly hate it when I cannot be number one.
Yes, tell me that I'm too ambitious and arrogant and competitive.
I SWEAR I'm gonna top class. Yeah, I SWEAR!
*sigh for my own stupidity*
I don't really like the way I am becoming now. Somehow standing in a neutral position and be the observer is much more easier to breathe. I hate making decision about something and I hate making up my mind. I hate when I have to admit I like Japan, and I hate to appear as a Japan addict in front of their eyes.
I, in one way or another, really want to look like a normal decent nerd.
I do love study, which is why I hate the way I am now. I hate the sleepiness that takes over my eyelids during lessons, which might result in terrible consequences if it's not for I have already learnt those things.
I hate it when I cannot make any progress. I hate it when I fail the exam... twice. And I truly hate it when I cannot be number one.
Yes, tell me that I'm too ambitious and arrogant and competitive.
I SWEAR I'm gonna top class. Yeah, I SWEAR!
*sigh for my own stupidity*
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21/4/09 15:45 (UTC)Really, that's too bad :( Ya know, everything comes with a price. You may think here we're so much ahead of you, but in reality when you go to the university phase you'll see how better Singapore's schools are. And, well, you get to be living in a constant speaking English world which many people dream for but couldn't achieve (even though it comes with the price of constant homesickness, I know I would too).
Yes, angst mode be gone XD I have to run for bed now, see ya :* *thousands of kisses ♥*